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cutting_edgex23) wrote2012-04-02 09:31 pm
cutting_edgex23) wrote2012-04-02 09:31 pm
Nightmares are only terrifying when there's something left to fear
X does not remember her dreams. Sometimes she thinks she does not have them.
That would be preferable to the situation she finds herself in, now.
Every night she dreams of Logan, but a Logan that smells wrong. The way he talks -- wrong. The way he moves --
She knows it is not her brother. He says things, terrible things.
He wants her to go back to the way she was, a thing. A tool. A weapon. Not a person at all. He wants to use her. X does not even have to listen to him talk to know that.
It is in his scent, the sound of his voice, the way he keeps reaching for her, even as she stays more than an arm's length away.
It is safer.
And when she wakes --
When she wakes it is almost impossible to tell that she was ever asleep at all.
If she were someone else, X would probably be afraid.
As it is, every night before she falls asleep, X just tries to remember to kill the thing wearing Logan's face.
Someday.
Someday soon.
That would be preferable to the situation she finds herself in, now.
Every night she dreams of Logan, but a Logan that smells wrong. The way he talks -- wrong. The way he moves --
She knows it is not her brother. He says things, terrible things.
He wants her to go back to the way she was, a thing. A tool. A weapon. Not a person at all. He wants to use her. X does not even have to listen to him talk to know that.
It is in his scent, the sound of his voice, the way he keeps reaching for her, even as she stays more than an arm's length away.
It is safer.
And when she wakes --
When she wakes it is almost impossible to tell that she was ever asleep at all.
If she were someone else, X would probably be afraid.
As it is, every night before she falls asleep, X just tries to remember to kill the thing wearing Logan's face.
Someday.
Someday soon.